Taking Back the Songs

At least everyone has a song that they can't listen to anymore because it reminds them of a past relationship. Unfortunately for me, I have many songs that remind me the past. Don't get me wrong, I love the songs, but I often find myself taken by surprise when they come on the radio, so I immediately change the station. Then I drive for awhile while thoughts of the past consume me. And I'm tired of it. So I'm taking back the songs. I have recently decided I'm tired of not listening to songs anymore because they bring back painful memories. I'm taking them back.

The first song I took back was "The Good Stuff" by Kenny Chesney. The song reminds me of the first boy to break my heart. After walking around a baseball park and talking about life for a good hour, we walked to his car, he opened the door and I got in. He scanned the radio passing all of the songs I loved and stopped on "The Good Stuff". He then started to sing the song to me. When I got home, I was on cloud nine. But then as teenage love goes, he faded away. He was the first boy to break my heart and I still find it difficult to listen to the song. But now when the song comes on I remember the relationship for what it was, a learning experience. And sometimes I actually sing along. The first time i sang along to it was at a Kenny Chesney concert. If you think a song bothers you when it's on the radio, just wait until you hear it live! I cried and wiped tears as I sang along. But I made it through. I survived. I took the song back.

I tend to associate people and moments with songs way to often in my life. I am slowly taking them back. And it feels great.