The Power of Words and Thoughts

I usually write some well thought out year end synopsis of my life and I share it before the clock strikes 12 on New Year's Eve. That didn't happen. In the world of Disney, that means that my carriage became a pumpkin, my outer adornment is shred to pieces and I've stumbled into the next day because I've lost my footing. That would be an accurate description of how I felt as the clock struck 12.

Sitting on the couch in my pajamas, I watched the clock as it ticked us into 2016. My heart sank. How could I feel excited over a year of possibilities, when I stumbled into 2016 with nothing to show for 2015? 2015 was great! It was wonderful in ways. God really made His presence known in my life and pulled me closer to Him. So why have I felt like the year isn't over? What I began as a positive, lively woman, ready to take on the world, I ended as a tired and overwhelmed woman with the weight of her world on her shoulders. I started 2015 off with the mindset that this was my year to meet goals that I made for myself. It was the year that my life began. I couldn't figure out why I couldn't find the words to write about my year. It wasn't until trying to write this that I know why. How can a person write about accomplishments that they didn't complete? I was angry and ashamed of myself. Everything I started and every goal I had for 2015 is still unfinished. I have a year full of almost. Some things were good and some were bad. I may have stumbled into 2016 with a box almost full of half accomplishments, but by the grace of God, I made it.

I may be in the waiting room of life right now waiting for a diploma, done deals and wisdom to carry me into the next part of my life, but I will have to wait and praise God through it all. While I am waiting/working to meet goals that I've set for myself, other people are waiting on me and that can feel overwhelming at times. I may not have met any of the goals that I set for myself, but I know God isn't finished with me yet and He will carry me through.

I came across a bible verse I copied to a piece of paper some time ago. It read "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:" Philippians 1:6

While trying to find the exact wording for that verse just now, I was redirected to 2 Corinthians and God showed me again that He is always on time.

Every chapter and word that I read filled my soul and re-ignited a fire that had started to burn out. Even though I don't have anything outwardly to show for 2015, I have more stars of wisdom to light my path and shine light on the spiritual stepping stones that God is laying before me.

Last year was a year of preparing, waiting and learning. I pray this year is the year of completion. I may not have met the goals that I set for myself in 2015, but I'm almost there and that is closer than I was before.