I love to write songs. When I can't figure stuff out all I have to do is write. And also I like to write from stories other people tell me and I hear.

(Verse1)
They say history just repeats itself,
Well you know it's true....
She's just gonna turn around,
And do the same things to you.....
Again....

You thought she had changed her ways..,
And was the girl you loved before...
But she fooled you with everything..,
You don't know who she is,anymore..

(Chorus Intro)
Why do we let people...,
Walk in and out of our door?

(Chorus)
Do we do it because we're weak?,
Do we hope that people change?,
Do we do it because we miss what we once had?....
Why do we give a hundred chances..,
So sure that we can fix it...,
It seems fine for awhile,but never lasts....
If history just repeats itself,
I must be wasting my time.....

(Verse2)
You open the door,and pull out a chair..,
But still her nose is so high in the air...,
That if it rains she might drowned...

She says she loves you in every way,
With you she'll always stay...,
Then she's never around.....

(Chorus Intro)
Aren't you tired of her,
Always letting you down?

(Chorus)
Do we do it because we're weak?,
Do we hope that people change?,
Do we do it because we miss what we once had?....
Why do we give a hundred chances..,
So sure that we can fix it...,
It seems fine for awhile,but never lasts....
If history just repeats itself,
I must be wasting my time.....

She promises she's changed her ways..,
And that with her it's better days...,
Seals it with a kiss.....
But deep inside you know..,
That's just another lie from her lips...

(Chorus)
Do we do it because we're weak?,
Do we hope that people change?,
Do we do it because we miss what we once had?....
Why do we give a hundred chances..,
So sure that we can fix it...,
It seems fine for awhile,but never lasts....
If history just repeats itself,
I must be wasting my time.....

You said if "History just repeats itself,
I must be wasting my time..."

Single for life?

Be honest, sometimes the thought crosses your mind, "Am I destined to be single? Does The Lord, not have someone out there for me?". It crosses my mind. But then I remind myself of the conclusion that came to me a little while ago. God has someone out there for me. And I can be sure that he is out there, because I trust God. I also know that as much as I pray for God to put him in my life, that I need to pray for him. I need to pray for his health, heart, and most importantly, his relationship with God. I also know that I may not be in the place God wants me to be yet and that's why this person isn't in my life. So every day I feel like I'm destined to stay single my whole life, I just remind myself he is out there, better myself and trust God.

But then again, I never forwarded those chain emails a few years ago.... 😧

Until the day I meet "him", here is a song I wrote for him.


"My Prayer For You"

(Verse1)
I hope you find everything that you've ever dreamed of,
I hope you find the light of your life.
I hope your heart is fuller than the ocean,
And you count your blessings like the stars at night..
I pray that you find strength when the road gets a little bumpy,
I pray that your faith only grows.
I hope you see the beauty in every storm,
And I hope you know...

(Chorus)
Sometimes life may knock you down,
But get back up again.
Cling tight to the truth,
Remember that God is your best friend..
I pray that goodbyes make you stronger,
I hope you always know,
That somebody's praying for you and,
You're loved more than you'll ever know.

(Verse2)
I hope you always believe in your dreams,
I hope you always believe in yourself.
I pray that wherever this road takes you,
That God surrounds you with His angels..
I hope you see the lesson in every mistake,
I hope you inspire wherever you go.
I pray that your light shines through the darkest days,
And I hope you know.

(Chorus)
Sometimes life may knock you down,
But get back up again.
Cling tight to the truth,
Remember that God is your best friend..
I pray that goodbyes make you stronger,
I hope you always know,
That somebody's praying for you and,
You're loved more than you'll ever know.

You're not getting any younger

Maybe there is a book I forgot to read. Or maybe some chart that never graced my eyes about when a person should date, get married and have children.
Here lately I find myself dreading going to gatherings where I will see family and friends. Being twenty years old and still living with my parents is apparently unacceptable to some people. The main questions I am always asked are; "Are you in school?", "Where do you work?", "Do you want children?" "You need a man, honey.".
Why does having a boyfriend, a job, or children, make me more or less of a person. Can't I just find myself and be that for a little while?
The next person that asks me any of those questions will be hit sarcastically with "It's hard to juggle a boyfriend and school when I'm hitting the pole every night."
                  Sarcastically,
                          Not a stripper